So I had the most amazing weekend which culminated with a few drinks at my friend’s place where I met Dino. We hit it off right of the bat, the conversation was electric and it had been a while since I had one where I didn’t have to tread lightly so as to not intimidate the person I’m with so I lay it all out there, my love for the Beatles, my view on religion as a whole and a whole lot of other crap I don’t remember because honestly I was three bottles of beer past tipsy. Anyway, we had fun up until when I realised they were old enough to be my parent and that they chain smoked……….
“Carlton, remember the movie you watched last week and the points you got from it, this is where you should apply those key notes…. Go on, do it….”
If only, let’s just say the following day I was banging my head on my dorm room door for being such a horrid twit. Nothing happened, don’t jump into conclusions, I just led them on, no definite answer, just a shit load of maybes. After a string of suggestive texts, I just had to break it down to them which went something like this:
“Uhm! I’m not really in the place to be in a relationship.
That’s okay. We can just be Friends with Benefits..
Uhm! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!! Let’s just be friends.
Friends are good, you can never have to many.”
That was the end of it, or so I thought……… The suggestive texts still pilled on, nothing kinky, but their constant need to hang out, just the two of us, was bordering the realms of dating and I ain’t about to head in that direction. My decision you ask, it was to limit communication and face to face meets….
Hoping that they’ll take the hint already …..
That wasn’t what I wanted to blog about today. I’ve been feeling down, not really depressed, getting there though. I mean, I used to be fun up until I got this sick idea that the only way I could keep it up is if I was dating someone.
I mean, did I just brainwash myself??????
Anyway, taking a few weeks to sort it all out and start loving myself again…… No relationships, just me, myself and I, no reference to my personalities. :D
Keep your fingers crossed……………. Life is hard when you’re agnostic……….