Loving Thyself

So I had the most amazing weekend which culminated with a few drinks at my friend’s place where I met Dino. We hit it off right of the bat, the conversation was electric and it had been a while since I had one where I didn’t have to tread lightly so as to not intimidate the person I’m with so I lay it all out there, my love for the Beatles, my view on religion as a whole and a whole lot of other crap I don’t remember because honestly I was three bottles of beer past tipsy. Anyway, we had fun up until when I realised they were old enough to be my parent and that they chain smoked……….

“Carlton, remember the movie you watched last week and the points you got from it, this is where you should apply those key notes…. Go on, do it….”

If only, let’s just say the following day I was banging my head on my dorm room door for being such a horrid twit. Nothing happened, don’t jump into conclusions, I just led them on, no definite answer, just a shit load of maybes. After a string of suggestive texts, I just had to break it down to them which went something like this:

“Uhm! I’m not really in the place to be in a relationship.

That’s okay. We can just be Friends with Benefits..

*chocks*

Uhm! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!! Let’s just be friends.

Friends are good, you can never have to many.”

Phew!

That was the end of it, or so I thought……… The suggestive texts still pilled on, nothing kinky, but their constant need to hang out, just the two of us, was bordering the realms of dating and I ain’t about to head in that direction. My decision you ask, it was to limit communication and face to face meets….

Hoping that they’ll take the hint already …..

D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
O-L-D M-A-N
Your just an old man
Hitting on me what?
You need a cat scan


Old man, why are you starin' at me, mack on me and my friends?
It's kinda a creepy
You should be prowling around the Old folk's home
Come on dude!
Leave us alone

At first we thought that it was kind of ill when
We saw that you were like a billion
And still out tryin' to make a killin'
Get back to the museum


D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
O-L-D M-A-N
Your just an old man
Hitting on me what?
You need a cat scan

Hey dinosaur, baby you're pre-historic
Hey dinosaur, that's what you are HA
Hey carnivore, you want my meat I know it
Hey dinosaur, that's what you are HA
Yea, you're pretty old


Not long til' your a senior citizen
And you can strut around with that sexy tank of oxygen
Honey your toupee is fallin' to your left side
Get up and go bro!
Oh wait your fossilized HA!

Then you offered me a martini
Walk away with your hips with in sinking
Then you say, "Honey wanna come with me"
I'm about to barf seriously


D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
You are a dinosaur
O-L-D M-A-N
Your just an old man
Hitting on me what?
You need a cat scan

Hey dinosaur
baby, you're prehistoric
Hey dinosaur
That's what you are HA!
Hey carnivore
you want my meat, I know it
Hey dinosaur
That's what you are HA!

Hey dinosaur baby,
you're prehistoric
Hey dinosaur
That's what you are HA!
Hey carnivore
you want my meat, I know it
Hey dinosaur
That's what you are HA!

D-I-N-O-S-A
You are a dinosaur
D-I-N-O-S-A
That's what you are HA!
D-I-N-O-S-A
You are a dinosaur
D-I-N-O-S-A
That's what you are HA!

That wasn’t what I wanted to blog about today. I’ve been feeling down, not really depressed, getting there though. I mean, I used to be fun up until I got this sick idea that the only way I could keep it up is if I was dating someone.

Sigh!

I mean, did I just brainwash myself??????

Facepalm!

Anyway, taking a few weeks to sort it all out and start loving myself again…… No relationships, just me, myself and I, no reference to my personalities. :D

Keep your fingers crossed……………. Life is hard when you’re agnostic……….

Meh!