*looks up into the sky* "REALLY???"

Okay, February was an extremely dull month, fine, I went to really cool concerts and had maard fun out and stuff but generally when it came to my love life, it was well non-existent............. I'd love to say by choice, which in actual sense is true but I'll go right ahead and say the gods were conspiring against me because I like feeling like I let random things happen instead of the truth, which is I like being in control ... I mean, the universe kept giving me opportunities to score(I mean figuratively speaking, like a striker hitting the ball into the rectangular thing... O_o) like summer fling who was perfect for me but lives about 1000 kilometres away from here... *sighs*, person X who was really nice but who was too connected to my friends... *awkward*, person Y who I really liked but friend-zoned me, fine they're allowed to do that too (no double standards here :-P ) but I couldn't just be their friend, it was going to be agonizingly painful so I pulled the old "it's not you, it's me" card and we aren't even dating.. I know I'm a sick guy, but it was better than having them constantly reminding me of what we could be by being in their presence.. Three awesome people, stupendously unbearable situations.. REALLY??? 


I decided to just kick back and rest after all that, in any case my semester was ending and I had two weeks to reboot and laze around....... which I did....


*fast forwards to present*


I'm back in school, sorta, our lecturers are being thick headed, comes with being in public school. Two weeks into the semester and only three out of eight have shown up... sigh! We usually understand if they skive the first week but two weeks in a row, REALLY????

Figured It wasn't in my control so I'd just complain to the chairman of the faculty and see how things go. Next week better include a whole lot more learning because I cannot head into town and waste a whole day doing absolutely nothing.... That's about it when it comes to school.. I was looking forward to just focusing on books this semester then out comes the sugar coated candy from hell...... temptation reincarnated....

..... Pino Colada
..... Mon Capitano
..... Maxi Me

And I thought February was a death trap, I just walked into hell....... Same script, different cast.... Pino Colada's perfect... There's a spark, a wild one, not static, lightening and it's AMAHZING!!! buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut I don't think they like me as much as I thought or our busy schedules just make things worse,,, Sigh! Mon Capitano, formerly friend-zoned..... should have kept them there... Yikees! Maxi Me, one word, "average" but in a freakishly satisfying way but there's a catch, they are in a relationship...

*SIRENS*

I know, I shouldn't even be going there............. All I'm left thinking is REALLY???

I either have no idea what I'm doing with my love life (Erk! I really should find another word for what this is) or I'm getting what I really need but don't know it yet...

Sigh! I just need a clue.... 

*looks back*

I think I got one....

*evaluates*

summer love

Summer, I mean the African one.... Okay! Not really the African one, more like the Kenyan one.. Let's see, we basically have two seasons; the wet(cold) and the dry(hot)... Somewhere between them is the short and the long rainy seasons.... The long rainy (wet.. dah! ) season is around July which is the cold season and the short rains are around October making the dry season in between so like from November to March and August to September so technically December is summer (sort of our "woohoo" break it being around Christmas with schools closed and all) and our spring is in August to September.......

Enough of that, straight to the story.....

Anyway, so summer (think hot Nairobi December weather, no clouds in sight and the need to go the coast searing through your veins) was really good, always is really but this time I actually fell for someone.....
Summer flings? Haa! who'd have thank.. (it's sounds way cooler that way.. don't judge.. :P)
Went on vacation to Tanzania *cue the coastal taarab music*, Dar Es Salaam to be more precise and bumped into this gorgeous human being.... (I stretched the truth there a little, I didn't bump, I sorta planned to meet them.... I know, I know, I can't take it as coincidence so "bump" is misleading but I could argue that the fact that the arranged meeting took place without prior confirmation ipso facto means it can be judged as coincidence...... Ignore that, just know they're AWESOME!!!, that's the relevant bit... :D ) and we spent every bit of time we could together and it was AHMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! Watched a film, Mission Impossible 4, I liked that one, would be hard not to with a screen that huge.... Got a tour of the town, bless their soul, and all the nitty gritty gossip about the city, which isn't much considering there's nothing much to do there.. Okay, let me elaborate, there's not much to do there in terms of events and youth stuff.... It didn't make any sense but I was given the impression that places like Alliance Francaise and Goethe Institut in Dar weren't really marketing their stuff to the "watu wa kawaida (average person)" and therefore things like the free Monday films, art displays, plays and other random artsy stuff we take for granted weren't really happening there, made me love Nairobi that much more.. :( Anyway, so all this awesomeness happened; the bus rides (not as congested as I'd imagined, thank God for holidays), road side food (it was delicious...... Loved the "zege"- chips fried in eggs.. Way to a man's heart I tells ya :D ), the leisurely walks and the lengthy conversations, and at the end of it all, I was hooked......... Pretty sad I had to leave but the internet's always there so we still keep in touch (not the same really but I'll make due)..... Thinking of doing the whole long distance thing but that never really worked before so I'll just see how it goes.. Glad we met though, wouldn't change it for the world....

Seems to be my theme this year, letting things take their own course, a less vulgar description of the "fack dat shit" mantra I got accustomed to...

Can't wait to see what the new year's got for me.. :D

you have got to be kidding me....

I must be part of the worst cosmic joke of the century because.....c'mon how can I have the best birthday month of all time followed by a shit load of random stupid events that literally want to drain me of my humanity....
October saw me doing a lot of things but I generally don't like talking about myself especially when it's all positive cz somewhere inside it feels like bragging101 and I'm just not that guy, hence the silence... Anyway, everything seems to be crashing down on my head and I feel like buying a gun and going after father time for this practical joke he calls life cz what the fuck!!.
So, when I left you all my relationship was all hunky dory, fact is, it's not... Thanks to karma I'm in the same situation I was in 9 months ago, only this time the shoes on the other foot... Yup, you got it, I'm the stable mature one and he practically has the coordinates for this relationship set to destruction... Part of the reason I even wanted to be in this damn relationship is because I had found the first imperfectly perfect person I'd ever liked. Let me expound on that,