Is love enough??

"Do I love you??"

This question pops into my mind every time I look into your eyes..
I know I say I do but do I? ..
I never saw myself with someone like you, in the begin I did think it was possible but now I'm a tad bit sceptical..
You know how when you start a relationship you're filled with so many expectations and visions of ur possibly beautiful time together. Not forever but for the time you are together then they burst your bubble, reality checks in and you are'nt as happy as you thought you'd be..
It cud be the age difference.. Or maybe that's my excuse. No, wait! It cud be the age difference. We cnt be seen together n feel ok, we're at different stages of our lives and just being together is'nt enough.. Our needs are different and you aren't fulfilling mine and I sure ain't fulfilling yours with the thrill and need it should take..

"Do I love you?"

Maybe I do but it's not enough.. I need more.. I don't care that I feel like I do all the work in this relationship and the broken promises don't bother me at all but I dnt feel like I want to be with you.. And that's the scarey bit..

"Do I love you?"

Maybe not. I'm tired of waiting for the wave of a wand to make everything better, make you more of what I want or make me less needy, less of an adventurer, less of an extrovert and basically not me. I can't change too.. :-( ..

"Do I love you?"

I do but it's not everything. Happiness is my goal and I'm not even content with being your boyfriend leave alone in love with the idea..
I think I'd be better not being ur significant other. I think we'd be better off not 'together'..
Worse is I might break it off right before my birthday..

"Do I love you?" ..

I don't want to.. :-( ..